Being a Personal Inventory of Forty Years of Accumulating Loathing Toward a Man I Have Never Met, From a 1988 Casino Floor to the Cult That Worships Him Now
Oh my word, this hits like a brick dropped from the 50th floor, and describes with brutal efficiency EXACTLY how I feel about this POS and his followers. I’ve had to abandon friendships of 25 or more years because I couldn’t take one more second of hearing people I once held in high regard speak in breathy reverence about this freak show snake oil barker. I’ve had to stop going to some family gatherings, I’ve had to stop talking about ANYTHING but the absolutely mundane with siblings, but the worst of all of it is this; I’ve found this hate in me is back after decades of self-help, countless hours of therapy, years and years of intense introspection and inventories, like a lifetime of learning to see the best in others is gone, replaced with an all-consuming hatred. His voice makes my skin crawl, his face makes me want to hurl objects at the television, the awareness of him as a part of this species brings the whole family of man down 4 pegs. Worse yet, I too “hate that I hate him” and I don’t know what to do with that. Thank you for giving voice to this feeling, in a way it’s good to know I’m not the only one
I have come to believe he is evil. Now it's easy to trip over semantics, here. Clinical definitions seem to press against what has become for me a gut feeling.
Evil is something fundamentally malevolent, irredeemable, that corrupts what it touches. It is addicted to power and cruelty. It relishes dominance and feeds on harm.
The problem with the word, the concept, is that it implies power. Yet, I believe the power doesn't originate with him. It has been given to him. If he stood alone, he would shrivel like an inflated doll without air. He has no substance aside from his depravity. Yet he has been used to destroy the US from within.
We were an illusion of freedom, equality, democracy, law, honor, and civil rights. He gutted us. He was the tool used by his makers - the racists, the misogynists, the corporate ravagers of precious wilderness - the megalomaniacs of religion and oil and technology.
Yes • The hatred is warranted. However, bullies only bully until someone stops them. Charlatans only con people until they say No.
Nobody with the power to do so, has stopped him, nor said NO.
My hatred is certainly palpable, but it extends to his minions and those who are smarter than he is but because of a combination of fear and greed, do NOTHING about it.
I’m trying to take a deep, calming breath and failing miserably because this piece hit the mark like no piece I’ve read since. Because I hate Trump with the same ferocity. A hate that only burns hotter by the day. And that hatred along with contempt, extends to those who support him. I despise them all. And I feel that there will be no peace for the rest of us, not a modicum, as long as Trump is alive.
Yes ... you've said it all here - everything I've been feeling ever since his first term in office. Reading this -- and as much as I hate this phrase, it fits -- I feel seen.
You have described me to an absofuckinglute TEE!!! I am still working full time, but I spend 95% of my working days alone therefore I have so much time to just STEW. I hate the orange fat fuckweasel with my entire being and anything that is left over 🤬🤬🤬 I cannot write or say aloud what I hope happens to him and his entire evil regime
Excellent summary. What we have with MAGA is a cult led by a narcissist, and the historical record says it will not end well. Like the Manson family, Heaven's Gate, the People's Temple, and others, this cult will implode and self-destruct.
They just don't understand that we hate *him*. Not because he's a Republican; not because he represents a conservative point of view. We hate the man and all he does and all he represents.
And it's not even his actions - despicable as they are - that I hate; it's that he gets away with it, every damn time. Dan Quayle misspelled "potato". Yer outta here! John Kerry may have misrepresented his record in battle. We can't trust him. Gary Hart was photographed on a yacht, ironically called Monkey Business, with a woman who was not his wife. It could have been an innocent encounter. It could have been a set-up, as some people believe. (Although if it was, shame on Hart for failing into the trap). He's a womanizer!
But along comes a man who personifies those sins and more, and people worship at his feet. They will kill in his name. They have killed in his name. And they think we're deranged.
It's visceral. He was a punchline in NY, but somehow the tech bros algorithms created a cult around him that can neither be explained or forgiven. But again, tech bros. Even when he's gone the tech bros will be expanding Palantir surveillance and using our personal data that Musk stole, setting a trap to give themselves permanent techno authoritarian status with the rest of us serfs without freedom or rights. Therein lies the danger and we can't afford to forget it.
Well done. You are 100 per cent correct. It is very sad how far America has sank into the abyss. Everything you say about him is true. I know in my heart it is wrong to hate anyone. Because like you he rents space in my head. And it’s not good for me. He runs on hate and vengeance. My sincere hope is he will suffer for all the evil he has perpetrated on innocent people, like the young lady in the restaurant.
Great piece. Thanks for posting. I accept that I do have TDS. Trump and his supporters have bent my brain. I hope to eventually recover, but I am permanently scarred.
Oh my word, this hits like a brick dropped from the 50th floor, and describes with brutal efficiency EXACTLY how I feel about this POS and his followers. I’ve had to abandon friendships of 25 or more years because I couldn’t take one more second of hearing people I once held in high regard speak in breathy reverence about this freak show snake oil barker. I’ve had to stop going to some family gatherings, I’ve had to stop talking about ANYTHING but the absolutely mundane with siblings, but the worst of all of it is this; I’ve found this hate in me is back after decades of self-help, countless hours of therapy, years and years of intense introspection and inventories, like a lifetime of learning to see the best in others is gone, replaced with an all-consuming hatred. His voice makes my skin crawl, his face makes me want to hurl objects at the television, the awareness of him as a part of this species brings the whole family of man down 4 pegs. Worse yet, I too “hate that I hate him” and I don’t know what to do with that. Thank you for giving voice to this feeling, in a way it’s good to know I’m not the only one
Anger, hate and revulsion are not character defects in this case. They are a righteous and appropriate response to the damage that has been done.
Thank you, and I just love your screen name!
Brillig
Thanks! Do you recognize the source?
Jabberwocky by Lewis Carroll if memory serves me correctly. Then again I could be wrong.
You are absolutely right.
With a name like that, they better not get too close to Trump! 😬😉
Oh my friend who I will never meet, you are far from alone. The only balm is community, and it’s better in person.
Although I’m thinking it could be from Jabberwocky. I’m 70, it all starts to blend together after awhile 🤣🤣🤣
Yes, indeed! I'm old enough to have 'Jabberwocky' memorized still.
That is, if I’m not mistaken, from Carrol’s Alice in Wonderland
Same!
I vote for Trump because this is how he makes you and others like you feel and you need to discover how to overcome the flawed way you think.
Strange reason to vote for a racist pedophile rapist conman but hey, you do you!
Yup, I have all of the Epstein files, indexed and searchable. Trump is a violent child-rapist who may have murdered children with Jeffrey Epstein.
you should double and triple down on that. good luck.
This is an excellent piece. This speaks to so many of us. Thank you
Nobody has spoken my mind, expressed my thoughts and feelings more articulately and more forcefully than has this author.
I have come to believe he is evil. Now it's easy to trip over semantics, here. Clinical definitions seem to press against what has become for me a gut feeling.
Evil is something fundamentally malevolent, irredeemable, that corrupts what it touches. It is addicted to power and cruelty. It relishes dominance and feeds on harm.
The problem with the word, the concept, is that it implies power. Yet, I believe the power doesn't originate with him. It has been given to him. If he stood alone, he would shrivel like an inflated doll without air. He has no substance aside from his depravity. Yet he has been used to destroy the US from within.
We were an illusion of freedom, equality, democracy, law, honor, and civil rights. He gutted us. He was the tool used by his makers - the racists, the misogynists, the corporate ravagers of precious wilderness - the megalomaniacs of religion and oil and technology.
ThankQ Marge, from your mouth to God's ears, exactly how I feel.
He is an empty shell and the Darkness within him is doing the damage.
Yes • The hatred is warranted. However, bullies only bully until someone stops them. Charlatans only con people until they say No.
Nobody with the power to do so, has stopped him, nor said NO.
My hatred is certainly palpable, but it extends to his minions and those who are smarter than he is but because of a combination of fear and greed, do NOTHING about it.
I’m trying to take a deep, calming breath and failing miserably because this piece hit the mark like no piece I’ve read since. Because I hate Trump with the same ferocity. A hate that only burns hotter by the day. And that hatred along with contempt, extends to those who support him. I despise them all. And I feel that there will be no peace for the rest of us, not a modicum, as long as Trump is alive.
Native NYer here... hating him since as long as I can remember (1970's and counting) 🍸
Yes ... you've said it all here - everything I've been feeling ever since his first term in office. Reading this -- and as much as I hate this phrase, it fits -- I feel seen.
It helps to know that others feel the same.
"I hate that I hate him"
I hate the anger I am feeling at him and the anguish I am feeling at the disinterest of the people around me. And I don't even live in the US.
You have described me to an absofuckinglute TEE!!! I am still working full time, but I spend 95% of my working days alone therefore I have so much time to just STEW. I hate the orange fat fuckweasel with my entire being and anything that is left over 🤬🤬🤬 I cannot write or say aloud what I hope happens to him and his entire evil regime
Excellent summary. What we have with MAGA is a cult led by a narcissist, and the historical record says it will not end well. Like the Manson family, Heaven's Gate, the People's Temple, and others, this cult will implode and self-destruct.
My latest name for him is djj (= jim jones) trump
Fingers crossed 🤞
They just don't understand that we hate *him*. Not because he's a Republican; not because he represents a conservative point of view. We hate the man and all he does and all he represents.
And it's not even his actions - despicable as they are - that I hate; it's that he gets away with it, every damn time. Dan Quayle misspelled "potato". Yer outta here! John Kerry may have misrepresented his record in battle. We can't trust him. Gary Hart was photographed on a yacht, ironically called Monkey Business, with a woman who was not his wife. It could have been an innocent encounter. It could have been a set-up, as some people believe. (Although if it was, shame on Hart for failing into the trap). He's a womanizer!
But along comes a man who personifies those sins and more, and people worship at his feet. They will kill in his name. They have killed in his name. And they think we're deranged.
It's visceral. He was a punchline in NY, but somehow the tech bros algorithms created a cult around him that can neither be explained or forgiven. But again, tech bros. Even when he's gone the tech bros will be expanding Palantir surveillance and using our personal data that Musk stole, setting a trap to give themselves permanent techno authoritarian status with the rest of us serfs without freedom or rights. Therein lies the danger and we can't afford to forget it.
Well done. You are 100 per cent correct. It is very sad how far America has sank into the abyss. Everything you say about him is true. I know in my heart it is wrong to hate anyone. Because like you he rents space in my head. And it’s not good for me. He runs on hate and vengeance. My sincere hope is he will suffer for all the evil he has perpetrated on innocent people, like the young lady in the restaurant.
Your thoughts about this abomination mirror my thoughts. I wonder how many millions of mirrors there are. Surely he is the most hated person alive.
Of that, I am SURE
Great piece. Thanks for posting. I accept that I do have TDS. Trump and his supporters have bent my brain. I hope to eventually recover, but I am permanently scarred.